4 Week Beginner's Pilates Challenge

Okay, so I'm not entirely sure this thing I'm doing is called a challenge, but it will be for me. Over on blogilates.com there's a 4 week plan for those just beginning their Pilates journey which is perfect for me. For one it has everything you need to do each day spelled out in front of you so you don't have to worry about it. Also, there's a different combination of workouts everyday so you don't get bored. There's also a rest day included with healthy meal suggestions.

Basically, there's a calendar that you can print out that has a few different workouts each day for you to check off and sign to mark your progress. On the website there's links to the videos for each day so you don't have to bother with trying to search for them. 6 days of Pilates workouts and 1 day of rest at the end of each week. I've already decided that I'm probably not going to follow the healthy meal suggestions just because I don't want to have to go out and buy anything. I'll just continue with my smoothies, salads and oatmeal and call it a day. I'll make weekly posts updating my progress.

See you in a week!

I'm Inspired!!!

While reading another blog over on Wordpress, a quote from the author of the blog really inspired me:

"I think it’s absolute ludicrous to NOT do something just because you don’t have a companion. You will waste your whole life waiting on others to agree to do what YOU want. Makes no sense."

I swear this totally speaks to my life. So many times I don't do things or I end up altering the things I want to do just because my friends don't want to do them with me or I feel like I have to appease them. What the hell was I thinking?!?! There are a few things out there that I just feel aren't any fun to do without a companion like going to an amusement park, but so many other things I could do on my own and be just fine. There's no reason in the world for me not to do something I really want to do just because I can't get anyone to do it with me. Screw that. I need to live my own life and live it for myself.

It's gonna take baby steps but it's gonna be worth it in the end and much more fulfilling when I get to do all the things I want to do. My first mission: Go to the movies alone (I know it's not much but I'm trying okay, geez). 

Thanks to Dash of Reality for that reality check. I SO needed that in my life right now.

Is it a girl thing or am I just ridiculous?

Once again I've started obsessing over a guy after only really knowing him for a short time. Actually I met this guy almost a year ago but we've only recently starting hanging out or "dating" if you will. It was only one "date" so I don't know if I would call that dating anyway but whatever. The point is now I'm back to doing that ridiculous thing I do when I obsess over a guy to the point where it drives me crazy. I'm just wondering if this is a general girl thing or if I'm just weird like that.

Basically ever since Monday the 5th we've talked on the phone almost everyday. I saw him the Friday before that but didn't call because I knew he had some things going on. Then when I finally did talk to him Monday he's all "why didn't you call?" First, I didn't realize I was supposed to call and second I don't want to seem like I'm all up on his dick for lack of a better term. Anyway, for the rest of the week we talked on the phone at least once everyday, maybe more. Then Friday we had our little date then I spent all day Saturday with him until around 7pm. He told me he was kidnapping me so he would have my undivided attention.

He dropped me off Saturday evening and said to call him and in my mind I'm thinking like the next day or something. Wrong. When I called the next day he's all like "hey, you were supposed to call me" and I told him I didn't realize he meant that same day. I was just with you for almost an entire day so I figured we could both use a break. He mentioned something about us trying to work out when to see each other this week because he starts school again so with that and work he's gonna be busier than usual.

Now on to my ridiculousness. Is that a word? Whatever. Anyway, it's been a day and I haven't talked to him since yesterday afternoon sometime and I'm having a fit. WHY?!?! Why do I always to this to myself? I get way too attached way too fast and it becomes a problem. I mean here I am freaking out because this guy hasn't called me since yesterday! Who does that?!?! Is this normal? Do all girls do this or it is just me? Someone snap me out of this and help me come to my senses!

A rant....

These are some thoughts that I typed on my iTouch a few weeks ago when I was on Spring Break in Miami. I couldn't really talk about it to my friends so I decided then and there to start keeping something of a journal and this is what was produced over the course of about 2 days.

Part 1:
I feel stupid about this guy. Like I'm being annoying or just looking really thirsty when I don't think I am. I just think he's a nice, cute guy that I want to hang with while I'm here. What's wrong with that? I hate not knowing what's going on with dudes. So annoying. I expected way too much and now I'm disappointed with the outcome. And I can't even make contact again today so I'm just done for the moment. I don't want to play myself any harder than I already have.

Part 2:
Still trying really hard not to feel stupid but I do. I thought this guy liked me and maybe he really does but he hasn't tried to contact me at all. Now I'm wondering if I just fell for the game yet again or if I'm making something out of nothing like I always do. I think my instincts about guys intentions are usually pretty accurate but right now I'm not sure. I really don't want him to be just another well disguised jerk but that's what I'm afraid is happening. But then I usually tend to think of the worst possible scenario in every situation so who knows.

Part 3:
7pm and still watching my phone. Kinda pathetic isn't it? Ugh, I just don't know anymore and I'm pretty bummed about the whole thing at this point. That's the problem when you're the kind of girl who falls too hard too fast ALL the time. I wish I could control when and how I fall but I guess you're not supposed to.

Part 4 (the next day):
So it turns out his phone died so that's why he didn't text me back. For that I can't really be mad at him. On the negative side he kind of blew me off for our dinner plans. First he asked me if I wanted to meet up for dinner around 7. Then around 6:20 he says he just got in the bathroom so it's gonna be awhile. Ok, fine. Then I don't hear from him for a while so I text and say 'hey, what's up with dinner?' He says he already had dinner and he thought I was gonna have dinner with my friends. Really dude? WTF?! At this point I'm pissed but it's my vacation so I'm not gonna let it get me down.

"I can see you married to a white man...."

The title sentence of this post was uttered by a good friend of mine while we were on vacation. Oddly enough, I had never really thought too much about the possibility of marrying a white guy until she said that. I've dated people from different races so it really doesn't matter but for some reason I never considered it.

Like I mentioned before, this whole thing started while we were on vacation in Miami for a few days and I guess my friend, who I'll call 'M,' noticed a difference in my behavior/communication with black guys vs. white guys. M told me that I'm more talkative and engaging with white guys than with black guys. Apparently with black guys I was looking around, not making as much eye contact and not talking to them as much. I never noticed any type of change in my behavior when talking to guys of different races so I was a little surprised by her comments. There's really no explanation I can think of as to why this happens because I don't prefer one race over the other and I've had both good and bad experiences with both black and white guys.

After doing a little self reflection, I realized that it is much easier for me to talk to white guys. I have no clue why but that's just the way it is, for me at least. At the moment I'm crushing on a black guy and a white guy so I guess I'll have to be a little more observant of my behavior towards each of them to see if there are any real differences. Nothing wrong with a little self analysis every now and again. With that being said, in the words of Big Pun: "I don't discriminate, I regulate every shade of that ass."

Happy Dating! :)