Movie Review: For Colored Girls

I'm gonna keep this pretty brief.

I have to say that overall I really liked it. It's not my favorite movie but I'd definitely watch it more than once. It was a little awkward at times when the characters started reciting their monologues/poems or whatever they were. There were a couple that just didn't quite seem to fit into the moment and if you aren't familiar with the play or book (like myself) then it comes of as really random. The first couple of times I didn't even realize what they were talking about but then it started to make sense.

I don't want to give anything away but the scene with the kids was just INSANE. I was so shocked I couldn't even believe it. Then there was the one part with Macy Gray that was also pretty crazy. I also heard that Mariah Carey and Jurnee Smollett were originally supposed to play the characters played by Thandie Newton and Tessa Thompson (respectively). To be honest, I can't imagine Mariah in that role AT ALL. Not even a little bit. But I can totally picture Jurnee as Tessa's character (sorry, I don't remember their names).

Anyway like I said, I thought it was a good movie and I'd definitely recommend it to anyone.....not just "colored" girls.

Adopt a Kid or Have One the Old Fashioned Way?

Let me start by saying I am not in the market for a kid at the moment. It's the absolute WRONG time in my life. But with so many of my Facebook friends getting engaged, married and having babies the whole kid thing has really been on my mind a lot lately. And in case you're wondering, I'm 24. I really think this quarter life crisis thing is starting to get to me. I guess with graduation coming up next year I'm thinking a lot about my future and what I want to do with my life and what kind of time frame I'm looking at and for some reason I just can't get babies off my brain. Scary stuff huh?

Now on to the subject at hand.

I was just thinking about this because I remember hearing somewhere (possibly on an episode of Law & Order) that it was selfish to have kid when there's all these kids already out in the world who need homes. And on the one hand I totally get that and it makes perfect sense. I think a lot of people want to have kids so that they can pass on their genetic material to the next person and they can have someone that's literally a part of them. Not saying that's the only reason but I think that's a large part of it. Just being able to look at this kid and say "hey, I helped make that."

For me personally, I just feel like actually being pregnant and having a child is something that I really want to experience (as painful as it is). But no time soon of course. I have it stuck in my mind that I'm gonna have a little girl and name her Jordan.....with my luck I'll end up with all boys. Then there's the adoption thing. Would I at least consider it? Absolutely. But to be honest I would like to have at least one kid of my own. Maybe I can adopt one or two after I have my Jordan lol. But of course I'll have to graduate, find a job, a husband and a place to live first.....husband optional but that would be the ideal situation. Why you ask? Because I want to have a kid and if I sit around too long waiting for a husband in order to have a kid my eggs might be dried up by the time I find one then it'll be too late. I guess that's what sperm banks are for.

Anyway, just wondering what other people think. Is it selfish to have a biological child when there are already millions of parent-less kids out in the world just looking for a home? I don't. I think it's only natural for someone to want to have their own biological child but I can certainly see the argument for both sides.

What do you think?

Why Do You Care?

After seeing several people on twitter and other social networking sites basically begging for acceptance from their internet friends it made me wonder, why do they care? I can't for the life of me understand why anyone would care about some random person's opinion of them. Especially when they only contact you've ever had or probably will ever have with that person is via the internet. Yes, we're "friends" on Twitter because we obviously share some common interests and we're interested in what each other has to say but that's as far as it goes. I'm not really interested in all the ins and outs of your life, nor do I feel the need to tell you mine.

Some of these people just seem to have really low self-esteem and are borderline depressed and I guess just looking for some type of validation of their life. For example, one of my followers on Twitter is constantly talking about how if he deleted his account no one would care and he's always begging for people to text with him because he's bored and what not. Then just recently he said he thinks he's bipolar. This might sound harsh but call a fucking therapist and get over it. I don't go on twitter to hear about how miserable and depressed you feel. Furthermore, I don't understand why you care so much about what all of these internet faces think of you. Is your situation in real life so terrible that your internet friends are the only ones you feel you can count on? If so, that's really sad and you might want to do something about that.

I guess if a lot of people are like this I can see how internet bullying can lead to kids wanting to hurt themselves which is even more sad. I don't know, I guess I just feel like the internet and social networking sites just aren't the place for all that drama. Why not go to a support group or something and make some REAL friends?

I'm Inspired!!!

While reading another blog over on Wordpress, a quote from the author of the blog really inspired me:

"I think it’s absolute ludicrous to NOT do something just because you don’t have a companion. You will waste your whole life waiting on others to agree to do what YOU want. Makes no sense."

I swear this totally speaks to my life. So many times I don't do things or I end up altering the things I want to do just because my friends don't want to do them with me or I feel like I have to appease them. What the hell was I thinking?!?! There are a few things out there that I just feel aren't any fun to do without a companion like going to an amusement park, but so many other things I could do on my own and be just fine. There's no reason in the world for me not to do something I really want to do just because I can't get anyone to do it with me. Screw that. I need to live my own life and live it for myself.

It's gonna take baby steps but it's gonna be worth it in the end and much more fulfilling when I get to do all the things I want to do. My first mission: Go to the movies alone (I know it's not much but I'm trying okay, geez). 

Thanks to Dash of Reality for that reality check. I SO needed that in my life right now.

Things My Friends Say: Do Not Resuscitate

Today, during our post-conference for clinical we started talking about DNRs or Do Not Resuscitate orders for patients. Then we started to get into whether we would want to have a DNR order or not when one of the other girls in my clinical group uttered the following:

"I don't want a DNR, I want a DNO - do not ostomize."


A good laugh was had by all. (in case you're wondering, there's no such thing as a DNO)