Why Do You Care?

After seeing several people on twitter and other social networking sites basically begging for acceptance from their internet friends it made me wonder, why do they care? I can't for the life of me understand why anyone would care about some random person's opinion of them. Especially when they only contact you've ever had or probably will ever have with that person is via the internet. Yes, we're "friends" on Twitter because we obviously share some common interests and we're interested in what each other has to say but that's as far as it goes. I'm not really interested in all the ins and outs of your life, nor do I feel the need to tell you mine.

Some of these people just seem to have really low self-esteem and are borderline depressed and I guess just looking for some type of validation of their life. For example, one of my followers on Twitter is constantly talking about how if he deleted his account no one would care and he's always begging for people to text with him because he's bored and what not. Then just recently he said he thinks he's bipolar. This might sound harsh but call a fucking therapist and get over it. I don't go on twitter to hear about how miserable and depressed you feel. Furthermore, I don't understand why you care so much about what all of these internet faces think of you. Is your situation in real life so terrible that your internet friends are the only ones you feel you can count on? If so, that's really sad and you might want to do something about that.

I guess if a lot of people are like this I can see how internet bullying can lead to kids wanting to hurt themselves which is even more sad. I don't know, I guess I just feel like the internet and social networking sites just aren't the place for all that drama. Why not go to a support group or something and make some REAL friends?

I'm Inspired!!!

While reading another blog over on Wordpress, a quote from the author of the blog really inspired me:

"I think it’s absolute ludicrous to NOT do something just because you don’t have a companion. You will waste your whole life waiting on others to agree to do what YOU want. Makes no sense."

I swear this totally speaks to my life. So many times I don't do things or I end up altering the things I want to do just because my friends don't want to do them with me or I feel like I have to appease them. What the hell was I thinking?!?! There are a few things out there that I just feel aren't any fun to do without a companion like going to an amusement park, but so many other things I could do on my own and be just fine. There's no reason in the world for me not to do something I really want to do just because I can't get anyone to do it with me. Screw that. I need to live my own life and live it for myself.

It's gonna take baby steps but it's gonna be worth it in the end and much more fulfilling when I get to do all the things I want to do. My first mission: Go to the movies alone (I know it's not much but I'm trying okay, geez). 

Thanks to Dash of Reality for that reality check. I SO needed that in my life right now.

Things My Friends Say: Do Not Resuscitate

Today, during our post-conference for clinical we started talking about DNRs or Do Not Resuscitate orders for patients. Then we started to get into whether we would want to have a DNR order or not when one of the other girls in my clinical group uttered the following:

"I don't want a DNR, I want a DNO - do not ostomize."


A good laugh was had by all. (in case you're wondering, there's no such thing as a DNO)

Quotes by Me: Jeans

I just got home from hours at the library and my jeans were annoying me so I said:

"I need to put some shorts on because these jeans are irritating my soul."

Why am I so random you ask? Beats the hell outta me. That's all for now, short and sweet.

ps: I FINALLY found another roommate....yay! 

Bitches KILL Me!!!

So, my friends (and I use that word loosely) are on my damn nerves. We're supposed to be going on a trip to Europe next year but so far it looks like I'm going alone because I think I'm the only one who has actually booked the trip so far. First off, I already had to alter what I wanted to do to appease them which already pissed me off. I wanted to go on the 30 day tour but my one friend said she probably wouldn't be able to get a month off both of her jobs and the max she could do is about 2 weeks. Okay, as annoying as that is, I get it so I agreed to go on a 15 day tour so everyone is happy. I know it's gonna be fun no matter how long it is, but if I'm gonna go to Europe I want to go all out. *sigh* Maybe next time. 

Once we all agreed I went ahead and put the down payment on my trip because there was a discount going on at the time and I wanted to make sure to get a few bucks off the trip. I could use that money to buy souvenirs or something. Now I'm starting to feel like they're backing out and they just don't want to tell me. I told my friend when I booked and all that good stuff but I haven't heard anything from either of them. I sent them a Facebook message asking if they booked and telling them that the prices go up next month but I haven't gotten a reply.WTF?!

So now I just have no idea what's going on and it's pissing me off. I need to just call these broads and ask them what they're doing because I have no clue. One thing I know is that I'm going. Whether they go or not at this point is just whatever, but I want to go and I'm going. And if they decide not to go I'm going with my original plan to go on the 30 day tour. Screw it!

ps: If anyone would like to help me fund my little trip I would REALLY appreciate it. So far I only put down the $150 down payment to hold my spot but I'm working on the rest. Every little bit helps so if you can there's a link on the right where you can "chip in." Thanks.